Tuesday, December 01, 2009
whats exams?
exams are finally over! all the papers are so difficult and i din finish any of the papers! i really dont know how i will fare for this exams!but anw im glad that its over! and holidays are here! straight after the exams i exercised :) tennis and jogging! badminton tml!went shopping with yt just now! haha bought bangles! so long nv shop but shopping is so tired hahaa! more more outings/gatherings! :D
Sunday, November 15, 2009
yuklum
i think i know myself fairly well.i know what kind of people i like and dislike.i know my temper.i know my mood swings.and i dont see a need to change. its just me.i am usually a happy person because i believe that happiness is contagious. someone once told me that being ard me makes that someone happy also. but.small things can make me sadand small things can also make me mad. i just cant stand alot of things.i can stand people blaming or scolding me for nothing.things that i dont think i deserve to be scolded for.you can reason with me but to be honest sometimes i cant take it too.but i became gd friends with someone who told me straight in my face whats wrong with me.i know that my way of dealing with this is unhealthy. i cry whenever im sad or angry. i appear to be happy so who can i talk to?i have all the emotions everyone has but i have no one to talk to.i miss my dad. 20 years with him ard but actually just spending half or less of the 20 years with him. 1 year and i still cry like shit.who can i tell.i know many people are good listeners.but i havent found the perfect person whom i can talk to.i think theres none.theres a lot of emotions that i want to blog about but who cares.
Friday, November 13, 2009
i cant stay away
can i not think? i want to stop thinking. i need to concentrate.somebody save me, teach me how to stop thinking.im doing things that make myself happy but i know i shldnt be.exams in 2 weeks. havent started on anything yet. just wasting my time on useless stuff :( good news is that freedom is in 2 weeks time.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
angry
im so angry. you are just a bitch! order people ard like your maid! stupid idiot.butter on sat to vent my anger hahaha!
Monday, November 02, 2009
just my feelings
i think i always have alot of different feelings in me all at the same time. i can feel very stressed and the next moment i dont really care about work. i can feel very angry or sad but the next moment i can be happily smiling. this morning an uncle smiled and waved to me. at first i was abit shocked, thinking whether i know him. but then i think again, why cant people just say hi to others, strangers i mean. i think its perfectly normal to say hi and make people happy. if only singapore is a country like that.i cant really agree with the saving gaia movement.
